Every once in awhile I decide that my body is tired of my non-concerted efforts to take care of it. No desserts until my birthday. Desserts is actually more encompassing than one might think. That means no mochas, no cake, no ice cream, no soda, no candy, no cookies, no chocolate chips. I will eat things like dehydrated fruit (even though it has added sugar), and occasionally I'll drink coffee and put creamer in it. yeah yeah, it had high fructose corn syrup and i'll probably get cancer tomorrow. Although, thanks Rhonda, for that homemade coffee creamer website. <-click on that. maybe I'll make that. You know. when I have time (never). The point is, I work in a bakery and those lonesome fallen-over cupcakes that we just can't sell are forever getting eaten by me and that has got to stop. My body needs a break...a cleansing if you will.
I did have an asiago bagel today...but i mean...it's not sweet. I think i'm exchanging sweet for incredibly salty and saturated fattening.
I don't like to think of myself being on a diet so much as just taking a break from my familiar daily addictions.
These addictions are piling up in so many areas of my life, and I don't really know how to break them. Negativity, a consumption with the way I look, critical attitudes about other people, sleep, selfishly creating conflict that doesn't necessarily need to surface...Dealing with this stuff is even worse because I feel like I don't have time. I don't know what it is about class and the monotony of it, but it seems to put people in regular bad moods. Not all the time but often. Also not everyone, but a lot of people. I'm one of those people. I wasn't made to sit in a room for any number of hours and learn by hearing. Like I really don't think that was the intention of man. MAYBE adam and eve's kids sat at fig tree desks and learned about what it's like to have disabled kids in the classroom, but I feel like they mostly learned by doing. Probably.
I keep telling my friends to be where God has them. But I think I'm failing just as much at also manifesting that. Positive attitudes are our friends...
